You Know Better

I’ve ended things with us

so many times

I’ve lost count of the ways

I’ve tried to say goodbye

Words I’d say

that went in one ear

and out the other

Threats I made

to keep my space

but end up right beside you

Text message essays—

like goodbye letters

just to talk to you

the next day

I’ve literally said no

sat beside you

straight-faced

and spat it

but you knew better

and you challenged

whether I meant it

or if I was just

trying to convince myself

we both knew

it was the latter

I cannot unlove you

despite the effort

and you revel in that

and you take advantage