Another Poem
Despite my best efforts
to dress up lines
in poetic rhyme schemes
and disguise
my mind state
as creative
and not insane
to conceal
my inability to cope
behind metaphors and similes
it seems my poetry
bleeds truth
self reflective
transparent confessions
where nice does not suffice
to convey the pain
that consumes me
numbness has lost all meaning
I've repeated it so many times
but it so accurately defines
my lack of feelings
and this nothingness
in my chest
that beats between the emptiness
Washed Ashore
Where do we go from here
when it is clear
that you've willfully plateaued
and I am intending
on nothing but growth?
Why keep pretending
we're whole
when we are shattered
beyond mending
broken beyond bending
and battered?
Can grains of sand
become glass again?
Does it even matter?
Waves of separation divide
the heart and mind
to disconnect
what's left
of our soul ties
it still hurts
but we're past the worst
most painful part and time
Neither of us should be surprised
by the condition we're in
or the position
we've put ourselves in
as two passing ships
in the dark
we are the literal definition
of drifting apart
Otherwise we would hold on
for dear life
but what do we have to extend
when we've both been
sitting on our hands?
Long gone but stayed
around only to fade
into the background
jaded with regrets
So give me credit
commend me
for ending it
because it was not a decision
I easily made
but it was needed
and you never would have did it
I mean
what was the alternative?
To live this
numb coexistence
consumed by routine
in hopes
that going through the motions
will make it become
what it used to be?
Was it a misconception of love
or foolish pride
that made us blind?
As we stand over a shallow
pool of our own demise
Do we even recognize
our reflections?
Yours Truly, Dracula
I read what you write
The words stick to my mind
A crush like a high schooler
Imagine that
A person I never seen
My ole pen pal
Your poetry moves me
I can hear you voice while I read
Leave me wanting more
Wanting to be your Dracula
Together we feast
Dress in all black and roam at nite
We don't see the sun
No need
Let me rest
I want to dream to see
How we will be
You feind for my fangs
Life turns upside down when we hang
Is like humans don't want to see Dracula with hearty eyes
They don’t understand LOVE
Living behind the mirage of likes
they don’t understand what’s real
We thirst
When we finally find each other
Knowing we might live forever together
Thats the thrill
Peace & Love
Quicksand
I’m drowning in you
I oncefound it metaphoric
and beautiful
but now its consuming
and I feel as if
Im delusional
clinging to false hope
with enough rope
to hang myself
but not enough to get a grip
whether I do or don’t I’m damned
I can not take a stand
because I’ve fallen
the ground beneath me softens
and I sink
into you like quicksand
I Hear Your Silence
The way I’m in love with you
is scary to me
I’ve never had this experience
I know I could be severely hurt
I’m weary, but
I cant help myself
I dive in head first
with no regard or concern
Am I delirious
free falling?
Am I hearing
your soul calling?
Why do you silence it?
Is self-righteousness
or are you frightened by us?
Because you know what
we’re capable of
and we’re right on the cusp
of discovering it
The Theory of Revenge
Revenge, like a vengeful flame, can captivate our minds, driving us to seek retribution with a fervor unmatched. Yet, little do we realize how effortlessly it devours our valuable time, transforming it into an unsalvageable void. In the pursuit of vengeance, we become engrossed in a never-ending cycle of plotting, scheming, and executing our plans. This obsession with righting perceived wrongs clouds our judgment, obscuring the beauty of personal growth and the opportunity for forgiveness. We sacrifice precious moments that could be spent fostering love, nurturing connections, and cherishing our experiences all for the sake of revenge, only to discover that it was an ill-advised expedition into a barren wasteland of wasted moments that can never be reclaimed. Revenge is part of a loser mentality. Once you seek revenge you lose yourself.
Peace & Love
The smile from Julia
Where stars flicker and dance,
There is a celestial phenomenon,
More captivating than happenstance.
It is the radiant curve on her lips,
That beckons with its gentle sway,
Her smile, a masterpiece in motion,
Illuminating each dreary day.
Within that tender, joyous curve,
Lies the power to heal and mend,
A magic elixir for a weary soul,
A solace that knows no end.
With every rise of her lips,
A thousand galaxies come alive,
As constellations dance and twirl,
And the universe begins to thrive.
Her smile breathes life into darkness,
Bathing it in a vibrant array,
Colors blossoming like wildflowers,
Creating art in the Milky Way.
It whispers secrets of pure delight,
To nebulae and shooting stars,
Bridging the gaps of time and space,
And mending cosmic scars.
It touches the hearts of distant planets,
Enveloping them in warmth and care,
A comforting embrace from afar,
That transcends the bounds of air.
Her smile, a beacon of hope,
A celestial guiding light,
Leading lost souls back home,
Through the darkest of nights.
It speaks of love and tenderness,
Of dreams yet to be found,
And in the twinkle of her eyes,
The universe's secrets are unbound.
For in her smile lies the essence,
Of everything that's good and pure,
A reminder of the beauty we possess,
A gift that will forever endure.
So let her smile shine, unabridged,
And let its radiance fill the void,
For in her smile, we find solace,
The best thing the cosmos employed.
Peace & Love
Songs playing in the background: Cleo Sol “Heaven”, Frank Ocean “Blonde”
The 5 year Plan
Keep the vision to yourself. Write down your goals. Go after it. Don’t tell ANYONE. Enjoy what now is. The journey will lead to better. Forget the roads and roadblocks. Trust you will find your way. Trust yourself. Be discipline. Fresh air coming from the west coast. Enjoying muggy days smiling through the rain. Create your peace. Distance yourself from distractions.
PEACE & LOVE
Albums that will be played through the journey: Kanye West “The Graduation”, Jay-z “The BluePrint 3”, J-Cole “2014 Forest Hill Drive”, Nas “Illmatic”, Kendrick Lamar “Damn”, Frank Ocean “Channel Orange”, Lauryn Hill “The MisEducation of Lauryn Hill”
Beautiful 37
In the quiet dawn of my golden years,
Where wrinkles trace the map of my past,
I find moments that bring me near,
To the beauty of life that will forever last.
Once a vibrant youth, full of reckless flame,
I chased dreams on the winds of wild desire,
But now, as age embraces my every frame,
I find wisdom in the embers of life's fire.
With every line etched upon my weary face,
I see stories written in the ink of time,
Glimpses of laughter, love, and pain leave their trace,
Reminding me of moments that were truly mine.
For in aging's tender embrace, I have found,
A tapestry woven in passion's grand design,
Where every thread, every memory profound,
Weaves a melody that makes my heart align.
The sun, now gentler, basks me in its glow,
As birds serenade with melodies of the air,
I watch as seasons change, come and go,
And marvel at life's intricate affair.
Gone is the haste that once consumed my days,
Replacing it with a quiet wisdom's bloom,
Time's gentle whisper guides me through the maze,
And unveils the treasure hidden in each room.
No longer bound by society's demand,
I dance freely, unburdened by the fear of not,
Embracing the beauty of life hand in hand,
With memories that form a bountiful plot.
For as youth fades like a distant shore,
To be replaced by the grace that aging reveals,
I've come to realize, it's not the years, but more,
The lessons learned and the love that life conceals.
So, I embrace the wrinkles, each and every line,
As a testament to the stories that intertwine,
For in the dance with time, I've come to find,
That true beauty is found in embracing life sublime.
Peace & Love
Music that inspired this: The Beatles “Hey Jude”, Kool & The Gang “Summer Madness”, Jay-z “The Blueprint”
Wishful Thinking
I want to be in love
until I'm in it
I'm a walking contradiction
I think
I just like the feeling
of falling
it's only once
I've fallen
that I feel imprisoned
trading loneliness
for freedom
I feel closed in
smothered
and constricted
The fact is
as a creative
my art suffers
when I'm distracted
with someone
who doesn't
understand my mission
Is it narcissistic
to want someone like me
with vision
who gets it ?
No, it's wishful thinking
Delicate
Handle me gently like a flower
Shower me with your love and affection
Show me how much I mean to you
And how much it would tear you apart
To let me go
I endure all your worry
Because I know love disguised as fear
Not answering the phone so you’re wondering where
Mind running to a million places
To everywhere but trust
Because you fear I lust
For any other man but you
And maybe it’s true
So hard to tell you
Try to protect you from pain
Because I notice when your mind wanders
And hating me is never where I want it to wander to
So I betray your right to decision
To protect a heart that’s not mine to be protected
Trying to reassure you
But I’m just projecting
Deflecting
Constantly regretting
Moments of weakness and instant regret
Because, how can you love someone,
But then do that
Where is your heart really at?
In confusion
Because everyday you’re the one I’m choosing
But moments come when I stop hearing the music
Love so gentle
How did I bruise it
Taking everyday patiently because I don’t want to lose it
And no it’s not because of you
Broken inside way before you came along
Burning inside because I’m doing it wrong
Fear concealed by care
Remain Unchanged
I temporarily gained
an aversion
for solitude
and surprisingly
I was in the mood
to be loved and held
but everyone was used to
the old version of me
that didn't know how
to accept touch
or never dealt with
how I felt
Am I not allowed to change
or grow
I feel
like veal
boxed in
left in the dark
ready for the slaughter
no one allots for
how it's so hard
to be naturally guarded
and still want for closeness
but I guess
everyone always wants you
until they have you
then they straddle the fence
wanting to see which side is greener
when it's greenest
wherever you water it
I can't afford to wait
for them to figure that out
nor do I deserve the apprehension
but honestly I'm not offended
I'm oddly relieved
to return
to that version of me
they're unknowingly requesting
there is a sense of validation
in that vague familiarity
in life's ability
to be cyclical
yet unpredictable
I know someone is going to hurt me
but I never know how
And in no time
I'm reminded
why I've taken solace
in my solitary confinement
because at least there
I know what to expect
I've grown accustomed
to the nothingness
found my sliver of light
amongst the darkness
and it's too late to readjust
to the brightness
What was I thinking
momentary lapse in judgment
opening up like this
as if
someone who matches
and reflects
my design
could ever really exist
be it friendship
or romantic
I'd be setting myself up
for disappointment
to think
I could discover
one who could
hold my interest
be reciprocative
and transparent
in their true colors
that's why I thrive in isolation
I'm never lonely when I'm alone
I'm loneliest with others
Villain Era
When it comes to a relationship
I'm no longer willing
they say if you live long enough
you become the villain
and that's who I am now
when it comes to commitment
I'm a cynic
I'm done
wasting time with hopes and wishes
I've come to be realistic
that all that disney love they filled
our minds with
that convinced us
that with the right one
it'd be effortless
and serendipitous
was bullshit
happy endings are fictitious
love isn't like that
it's traumatic
and vicious
toxic and acidic
it'll shatter you into a million pieces
love is suffering
and most often
all for nothing
or at least that's been my experience
hence me being villainous
that rather have loved and lost perspective
was said by someone innocent
or perhaps ignorant
but no one would have ever
rather lost something that became
a piece of them
We will always have ourselves
REINVENT YOURSELF.
Peace & Love
Songs of my journey: AXL Rhodes “Dead Reckoning”, David Bowie “Heroes”, Jay-z “Allure”
I want to leave again
After vacationing, there is a bittersweet feeling that lingers in the air. The blissful moments spent exploring foreign landscapes, indulging in delicious delicacies, and immersing oneself in a new culture leave an indelible mark on the soul. The feeling is a mix of contentment and longing, as the vacation may have come to an end, but the memories and experiences remain etched in one's heart. It is a sense of replenishment, an escape from the boring routine, and a reminder of the beauty that exists beyond the confines of everyday life. As the suitcases are unpacked, the feeling after vacationing serves as a gentle nudge to appreciate the journey and eagerly anticipate the next adventure that lies ahead.
Peace & Love
The Wolf who leads the Pack
In the heart of the wilderness, strong and bold. A lone wolf roams, its spirit untamed, untold. With piercing eyes, wild and full of fire. The pack follows its steps, inspired by its desire. A creature of the night, cunning and wise. The leader of the pack with ears sharp as ice. A silhouette against the moonlit sky, A majestic figure, always ready to defy. Through valleys and mountains, they journey on. Swiftly they run, their unity unbroken, strong. They trust in their alpha, their guide in the night. With every beat of their hearts, they take flight. The leader, fierce and fearless, charts the course. Calling the wolves, a symphony of a primal force. Their howls through the misty air. Guided by intuition, unity is so rare. In the face of danger, the pack stands tall. The leader's copper eyes, a beacon to recall. Together they conquer, and their boundaries elevate. But the lone wolf knows a burden it must bear. For every step it takes, it feels the weight of care. Concerned for the pack's safety, it leads with grace. Balancing strength and love, an unyielding embrace. For the leader understands the responsibility it holds. To protect and provide, as the pack unfolds. Honoring the law of nature, their hunger to fulfill. As a reminder of their bond, their connection won't cease. A wolf leading its pack, a testament to loyalty and might. Together, they roam, their spirits forever igniting the night. So let us learn from the wolf, the leader brave and wise. To trust in ourselves, to soar beyond the skies. To be guardians of our pack, united in stride. Embracing our wild hearts, with courage as our guide.
Happy Fathers Day to the ones that protect at all cost. Don’t be afraid to lead your pack to unfamiliar territory. Conquer it.
Peace & Love
Music that inspired this poem: Kanye West “Power”, Jay-z “Legacy”, Jay-z “Family Feud”
Mad MAX Rob
Sometimes we get so caught up in trying to please others that we forget to take care of ourselves. We put everyone else's needs before our own and end up feeling drained and empty. But it's important to remember that it's okay to be selfish sometimes. In fact, it's necessary for our well-being. We need to prioritize our own needs and happiness before others. This doesn't mean we should completely ignore those around us, but it does mean that we need to take care of ourselves first before we can effectively care for others. So don't feel guilty for saying no to that extra task or taking a break when you need it. It's time to be selfish and put yourself first.
Peace & Love
No time to die
Though my flesh may wither away
And the light in my eyes may fade
I know that my spirit will stay
Forever in the hearts that I've made
The memories we've shared together
Will keep me alive through the years
My laughter, my love, and my anger
Will echo through their joyful tears
Each hug and each gentle caress
Will resonate long after I'm gone
And though they may feel my absence
They'll find solace in the love I've shone
So let them not mourn for my passing
But celebrate the life that we've shared
For though I may not be living
In their hearts, I'll always be there
And when they look up at the stars
Or watch the leaves dance in the breeze
They'll feel my presence near and far
And be reminded that love never leaves
For though my mortal body has faded
And my time on this earth is done
I'll forever be living and braided
In the hearts of those I've loved and won
Peace & Love
Driving with Your Purple
The engine purrs, we hit the road
Adventure calls, with each mile we go
The wind in our hair, the sun on our face
We feel alive, in this wide-open space
My favorite person by my side
Our hearts full, with nothing to hide
We sing along, to our favorite hits
Our voices dance, as we cruise down the bits
Windows down, the world in our view
Together we explore, and discover anew
The sights and sounds, so vibrant and real
We share it all, with nothing to conceal
As we go further, we leave behind
All our worries, all our grind
The journey, the drive, the moments we share
Together we find, love in the air
Driving with my favorite person, is nothing less
Than a wonderful journey, with unlimited access
To beauty, to joy, to life in its fullness
Together, we enrich, each other's consciousness
Peace & Love
Albums that inspired this poem: Prince & The Revolution “Purple Rain”, Dom Kennedy “Yellow Album”