Moment of Clarity

Moment of Clarity

So I kinda hate how we grew up. It is kinda bitter sweet. In one way I learn the way of life no books in the education system can teach you. The negative is that I grew up angry at everything. I had a list of people I wanted to shit on. People who treated me less than because of my financial situation as a kid or even teenage years. I wanted to sell drugs to prove something. Yea I was that kid trying to be like Henry from Goodfellas…”A gangster”. I look back and laugh because I was angry at everything that did not fall my way. Blamed my parents for not “showing me the ropes”. I was so unhappy with myself and did not see it. I wasted my 20’s in trying to complete my revenge missions. I was blinded. Till I fell rock bottom. I realize nothing or no one can make me happy. I know it sounds cliche but the Glory is in you. I started to meditate. Not holding grudges. When people did not support my ideas I just walked away. Meditating helped me focus on me. My goals. Life is about achieving YOUR own goals. Life is better when you look forward to something. Don’t look back. Smile more. Right now the uncertainty of this pandemic has people more anxious. Just remember you are not alone. Reach out to your closest friend. Your loved ones. Speak to someone. Just get it out your system. Negative energy can cloud your mind and judgements. Stop blaming others And be mindful everyone has their own agenda they have to complete. Learn to rely on the emotions that got you to the point of breaking but then breathe and realize there is a next day. We as men were taught not to be soft and emotional because that shows weakness. In my moment of clarity I notice I was weaker in my past. Stay positive through adversity. Clarify what are your goals and achieve them. I’m not saying that anger is not going to fuel you but when you keep it in your gut it won’t sit well. Life is a marathon. People will pass you by but you will get to the finish line. At your own pace.

PEACE and LOVE

Writer, Poet