Stay. Creative
Passion burns like a fierce flame, Consuming doubts, leaving no blame. In its heat, all fears are tamed, In its light, all hearts proclaim.
You will have to grow in the dark. Nonetheless. Stay. Creative.
Peace & Love
Song playing on my headphones while writing: Anais & The Hoops “Fool For You”
Keep up with your MASK
Mask on my face, hiding the view,
Expressions concealed, feelings subdued.
A facade I wear, so no one can see,
The turmoil inside, known only to me.
With every smile, a little more unknown,
Behind this barrier, I stand alone.
To shield and protect, the mask remains tight,
A necessary armor, throughout the night.
But deep in my soul, a yearning does grow,
For someone to see past this deceptive show.
To unveil the truth, the raw and the real,
And let down the mask, my vulnerability reveal.
Until then, I'll don this guise without fail,
Keeping my secrets hidden, behind this veil.
Hoping one day, in the right circumstance,
I can remove this mask, and embrace the chance.
Sometimes you take a shot. Sometimes it doesn’t work. In the end its ok cause you tried . Just feeling odd when you fail at any relationship. You open up and sometimes that other person doesn’t love how you love. It isn’t for YOU. Growth is knowing yourself and seeing your own value.
Some use the mask to survive. Some use it and lie.
Let them hide behind it. Whatever you do. Keep yours on.
Peace & Love
Music playing: Emapea “Late Night chill”, Phil Tyler “Never Again”, Hanz Zimmer “You Fought Well”
While you CARE, you will die inside.
Dreaming lately of leaving. I see that there are poisonous snakes all around me. What keeps us here? We are attached to the idea of the past. But some people already made their choices and no longer serves you. What is a great for you is to BE SELFISH. I see everyone’s hand and I notice this is a game I no longer want to play. A game that keeps you running in place. The tragedy that once you leave the “one” will miss you. Its a facade. Do you see how fast people move on after death? It will be like that when you leave. In the end it will be worth saving yourself. But if you stay you will most definitely die. Not unalive but not being able to breathe peacefully. Imagine that. Fighting your whole life. LET GO of what was or could be and face the facts. YOU need to feel ALIVE. Go breathe without the suppression. You are in it complaining about the lack of LOVE. So why not BE FREE. Let me repeat. Break the cycle. BE FREE
Just seeing a lot of people self sabotaging. Some people are afraid of being alone. So they will drag another soul into their darkness and its not fair. LET GO.
Peace & Love
Songs for the ride: J.Cole “Intro”, J.Cole “For Whom The Bell Tolls”
The Ecstasy
I watch her put on lipstick
She smiles when she notices my eyes
Watching her
While music plays
Me two stepping to her
Butterflies like we first met
Love our date nights
Seductive stares
Every moment feel like summer nights
Your smile puts me in a perfect mood
"True Colors"
You think you know someone
Like the back of your hand
But if you stare at it long enough
You’ll realize blemishes you’ve never seen before
We think because we’ve had it
In our lives for so long
That we know all of its nooks and crannies
Ignoring the fact we haven’t seen it from every angle
People have a way of revealing
Only what they want us to see
And we have a way of
Accepting only what we want to believe
And when true colors are revealed
We see how we’ve truly been aware all along
But instead of facing the music we cover it
With a lullaby
A sweet sweet song
If that’s my girl
And that’s my man
I’ve known her forever
My life long friend
While ignoring that daunting tune in the background
Of deceit, jealousy and let down
Through the Pageantry of Love
Through the flow of time. Our love dances a delicate line. Like a flickering flame in the night, Sometimes dim, sometimes burning bright.
We circle each other in cycles. Drawn together by invisible forces. Yet just as quickly as we collide, We find ourselves on opposite tides.
Moments of passion swiftly followed By turmoil and distance, feeling hollowed. A rollercoaster of emotions we ride, As our hearts sway with the changing tide.
In the quiet spaces between our storms. We find solace in each other’s forms. Yet the pull of uncertainty remains, A constant in our turbulent domains.
On and off we go, in this dance, Navigating love. Uncertain of where our journey leads, But finding comfort in each other’s needs.
Let us cherish the highs and the lows, For in this on and off love, our story grows. A tapestry woven with threads of delight, Each break only making us stronger, more bright.
Why are you afraid to LOVE? Reciprocate. What’s holding you back?
Peace & Love
Songs that was playing in the background while wrote this: Rio Romeo “Nothings New”, Sir “John Redcorn, FLOETRY “Say Yes”
Dancing on the bed
She moves in shadows, a tantalizing dance,
Graceful and fierce, every glance a trance.
Gilded in moonlight, her body sways,
A hypnotic rhythm, in sultry displays.
Her essence a paradox, bold and shy,
Eyes that beckon, secrets hidden nigh.
With each step, she sheds a veil of inhibition,
Revealing a soul seeking liberation.
In the smoky haze, she weaves her tale,
A temptress allure, beyond any veil.
Her movements fluid, like a whispered sin,
Drawing you closer, to the fire within.
In her world, boundaries blur and fade,
In the essence of passion, the heart's serenade.
An exotic dancer, a spirit untamed,
In the silent chaos, her dance proclaimed
Peace & Love
Wrote this listening to: Frank Ocean “Pyramids”
You are the Light
In the depths of despair, we find our strength,
A flicker of hope amidst the darkest night,
When trials assail and fears surround,
We rise from the ashes, unyielding and profound.
Like a mighty oak in the tempest's rage,
We stand tall, undeterred by life's fierce gage,
With resilience and courage, we forge ahead,
Turning obstacles into stepping stones instead.
Through adversity and storms that fiercely blow,
We navigate the rough seas, unafraid to row,
For within us lies a spirit, unshakable and free,
That surges forth with unyielding tenacity.
With each step forward, we reclaim our power,
Transforming doubt into unwavering tower,
Gaining wisdom and grace through every trial,
Embracing the journey with unwavering smile.
So let us rise, as we always do,
Facing our fears, our dreams coming true,
For in overcoming, we discover our might,
And emerge victorious, bathed in radiant light
Peace & Love
While it snows...
Don’t you get tired of trying to be right
Argue your way to a personal win
I don’t want to dispute any more
I want to be LOVED or left alone
No more mind games
Just do it
Afraid because of your past trauma
Fathers issues
Let me go & heal
Holding on to me hurts my growth
No one wants to be abandoned
But this life only have one seat one road
sometimes is lonely
Better to love yourself then
Keep guessing
Risk a broken heart
Its been worth it
Till my sanity is questioned
Hope you find yourself
Beyond the mess
God bless
Peace & Love
Repeat to self
Learn from your mistakes. Learn from your losses. Stop pointing the finger. Criticize yourself fairly. Judge yourself. Stay calm through the storms. Nobody cares. So be yourself and allow yourself to GROW.
Peace & Love
Music that got me thinking: AEROSMITH “Dream On”
“Freeak”
I want to dress up like Janet
And get Nasty
Then strip down like RiRi
And Dance for you like Beyoncé
While you adorn me like Miguel
I want to sing to you like Jhené
Make you contemplate on how I make you feel
Everything I do is going to turn you on
Like an Adina Howard song
Got you stressing like my name Cherrelle
I wasn’t trying to lead you on
Make you wonder about my curves
Even tho I’m shaped like Coi Lerray
Put it on you like raw shea butter
Hard
Got you wondering if imma star
But only in your eyes
To the world
I’m the quiet school girl with glasses
But you know it can get trashy, nasty
Lil mama stay sassy
Have you singing like Maxwell
It’s ok, don’t blush, I won’t tell
Making your blood build up
In the pit of your
Oh
Did I take it too far?
SELF APPROVED
Building Radiance: Embrace doubt, seek relief in self-belief. Construct resilience, layer upon layer. Learn, grow, sculpt strength from past mistakes. Cultivate self-care, nurture self-confidence. Ascend with those who inspire. Embrace failures, find might. Stand tall. Build fortress of unwavering brilliance. Just BE yourself.
I AM GREAT. I cant let anyone/anything control me. Know your worth. The lack of LOVE does not devalue me.
PEACE & LOVE
Song that triggered self reflection: Kanye WEST ft. Andre 3000 “Life of the Party”
Leave Me Alone
I avoid eye contact
because every time
I look someone in their eyes
I face the fact
they'll look back
and realize
I'm dead inside
I try to hide it
but I'm exhausted by
the effort required
to keep up the act
that I'm alive
to seem in tact
and not impacted
by my circumstances
I mask my pain
to refrain
from the attention I gain
from those who think they can help
"don't let it get the best you"
is easier said
by someone on the outside
who has never experienced it
fuck the audacity
or the ignorance
and all the well wishes
no one's sympathy
ever changed a thing
and I never asked for it
Another Poem
Despite my best efforts
to dress up lines
in poetic rhyme schemes
and disguise
my mind state
as creative
and not insane
to conceal
my inability to cope
behind metaphors and similes
it seems my poetry
bleeds truth
self reflective
transparent confessions
where nice does not suffice
to convey the pain
that consumes me
numbness has lost all meaning
I've repeated it so many times
but it so accurately defines
my lack of feelings
and this nothingness
in my chest
that beats between the emptiness
Washed Ashore
Where do we go from here
when it is clear
that you've willfully plateaued
and I am intending
on nothing but growth?
Why keep pretending
we're whole
when we are shattered
beyond mending
broken beyond bending
and battered?
Can grains of sand
become glass again?
Does it even matter?
Waves of separation divide
the heart and mind
to disconnect
what's left
of our soul ties
it still hurts
but we're past the worst
most painful part and time
Neither of us should be surprised
by the condition we're in
or the position
we've put ourselves in
as two passing ships
in the dark
we are the literal definition
of drifting apart
Otherwise we would hold on
for dear life
but what do we have to extend
when we've both been
sitting on our hands?
Long gone but stayed
around only to fade
into the background
jaded with regrets
So give me credit
commend me
for ending it
because it was not a decision
I easily made
but it was needed
and you never would have did it
I mean
what was the alternative?
To live this
numb coexistence
consumed by routine
in hopes
that going through the motions
will make it become
what it used to be?
Was it a misconception of love
or foolish pride
that made us blind?
As we stand over a shallow
pool of our own demise
Do we even recognize
our reflections?
Yours Truly, Dracula
I read what you write
The words stick to my mind
A crush like a high schooler
Imagine that
A person I never seen
My ole pen pal
Your poetry moves me
I can hear you voice while I read
Leave me wanting more
Wanting to be your Dracula
Together we feast
Dress in all black and roam at nite
We don't see the sun
No need
Let me rest
I want to dream to see
How we will be
You feind for my fangs
Life turns upside down when we hang
Is like humans don't want to see Dracula with hearty eyes
They don’t understand LOVE
Living behind the mirage of likes
they don’t understand what’s real
We thirst
When we finally find each other
Knowing we might live forever together
Thats the thrill
Peace & Love
Quicksand
I’m drowning in you
I oncefound it metaphoric
and beautiful
but now its consuming
and I feel as if
Im delusional
clinging to false hope
with enough rope
to hang myself
but not enough to get a grip
whether I do or don’t I’m damned
I can not take a stand
because I’ve fallen
the ground beneath me softens
and I sink
into you like quicksand
The Theory of Revenge
Revenge, like a vengeful flame, can captivate our minds, driving us to seek retribution with a fervor unmatched. Yet, little do we realize how effortlessly it devours our valuable time, transforming it into an unsalvageable void. In the pursuit of vengeance, we become engrossed in a never-ending cycle of plotting, scheming, and executing our plans. This obsession with righting perceived wrongs clouds our judgment, obscuring the beauty of personal growth and the opportunity for forgiveness. We sacrifice precious moments that could be spent fostering love, nurturing connections, and cherishing our experiences all for the sake of revenge, only to discover that it was an ill-advised expedition into a barren wasteland of wasted moments that can never be reclaimed. Revenge is part of a loser mentality. Once you seek revenge you lose yourself.
Peace & Love
The smile from Julia
Where stars flicker and dance,
There is a celestial phenomenon,
More captivating than happenstance.
It is the radiant curve on her lips,
That beckons with its gentle sway,
Her smile, a masterpiece in motion,
Illuminating each dreary day.
Within that tender, joyous curve,
Lies the power to heal and mend,
A magic elixir for a weary soul,
A solace that knows no end.
With every rise of her lips,
A thousand galaxies come alive,
As constellations dance and twirl,
And the universe begins to thrive.
Her smile breathes life into darkness,
Bathing it in a vibrant array,
Colors blossoming like wildflowers,
Creating art in the Milky Way.
It whispers secrets of pure delight,
To nebulae and shooting stars,
Bridging the gaps of time and space,
And mending cosmic scars.
It touches the hearts of distant planets,
Enveloping them in warmth and care,
A comforting embrace from afar,
That transcends the bounds of air.
Her smile, a beacon of hope,
A celestial guiding light,
Leading lost souls back home,
Through the darkest of nights.
It speaks of love and tenderness,
Of dreams yet to be found,
And in the twinkle of her eyes,
The universe's secrets are unbound.
For in her smile lies the essence,
Of everything that's good and pure,
A reminder of the beauty we possess,
A gift that will forever endure.
So let her smile shine, unabridged,
And let its radiance fill the void,
For in her smile, we find solace,
The best thing the cosmos employed.
Peace & Love
Songs playing in the background: Cleo Sol “Heaven”, Frank Ocean “Blonde”