Nights under a different moon

The whole village is sleep. We are awake. Champagne breaths. Music at the lowest decimal. Discussing the music choice while we break from sex. 4am giggles. Can’t keep our lips off each other. Nights like this makes life worth living. When I look at you, I’m under your spell. Our path crosses once more. We want the same thing. EACH OTHER.

Even when I turn to sand, I will find you.

Wrote this meditating. Thinking of YOU.

Worlds Apart

Inspired by “Space Wolves”

While I pack up

I wonder what drove you so far

From me

We been searching our whole lives for

Fire

To keep us warm at night

No smoke signal, but

My heart is telling me you need me

While danger looms

This world or the other

Make the enemies disappear

Cover your eyes

I don’t want you to see

How ugly I can get

Look beyond the battle scars

Rocket fuel is full

Ill travel anywhere

Doesn’t matter how far

As long we have us

we can wake up

to a different star

Peace & Love

Song playing while writing: David Bowie“Heroes”

February smiles

Every time I think of you, I smile

Miss you

soon you drive off

love when we hug

we smell like each other

Don’t ever want to go back to strangers

stuck on what if’s

How can we move on

when we kiss our lips lock

Damn

I just want to make you laugh

Time is flying

Hurry back

Valentines’ day approaching

You deserve roses

but Orchids for the rest of your life

Hope when you read this

your heart warms up during the cold front

Read this every cold month

PEACE & LOVE

Songs playing while writing: Mitski “My love Mine All Mine”, Yebba “Yebba’s Heartbreak”, Coldplay “Sparks”

Purple SOULS

Nights like these

We stroll through traffic

while you pour into my cup

I pour into yours

Some paths lead to the UNTHINKABLE

LIFE is better when there is no care

The way the world is rotting

There is no time to spare

It took me FOREVER

To work up

my courage to live for myself

I know my PURPLE

Is what you need

Inhale

Exhale VIOLET

eXPEDITIONs

On this one

I’m alone

The skies are dark

one thing I can do

I can find the light

stare at the star

with the coolest shades

They say

“Victory favors the brave”

imagine that

just a leap of faith

Your world would change

They called me crazy

But to me

staying ordinary is insane

M.i.A

We deserve this

Don’t feel guilty because YOU feel completed

Got more to come

Its ok to FLY

Keep winning

Eventually the truth will be revealed

your LOVE is worthy

Fuck ANYONE who makes you question yourself

See

You build yourself to this MONSTER

Now they want to control you

But

They didn’t believe

Now they want to reap the benefits

1993 FEELING 1984(vaporized)

Fade into Purple HAZE

You had your shot. NOW live in regret. Don’t wonder what happened. You made your choice. You won’t see me, but you will hear about me. They whisper about me while they watch me through their blind eyes. Trying to find me in them. SUCKA. Good luck.

Peace & Love

Stay. Creative

Passion burns like a fierce flame, Consuming doubts, leaving no blame. In its heat, all fears are tamed, In its light, all hearts proclaim.

You will have to grow in the dark. Nonetheless. Stay. Creative.

Peace & Love

Song playing on my headphones while writing: Anais & The Hoops “Fool For You”

Keep up with your MASK

Mask on my face, hiding the view,
Expressions concealed, feelings subdued.
A facade I wear, so no one can see,
The turmoil inside, known only to me.

With every smile, a little more unknown,
Behind this barrier, I stand alone.
To shield and protect, the mask remains tight,
A necessary armor, throughout the night.

But deep in my soul, a yearning does grow,
For someone to see past this deceptive show.
To unveil the truth, the raw and the real,
And let down the mask, my vulnerability reveal.

Until then, I'll don this guise without fail,
Keeping my secrets hidden, behind this veil.
Hoping one day, in the right circumstance,
I can remove this mask, and embrace the chance.

Sometimes you take a shot. Sometimes it doesn’t work. In the end its ok cause you tried . Just feeling odd when you fail at any relationship. You open up and sometimes that other person doesn’t love how you love. It isn’t for YOU. Growth is knowing yourself and seeing your own value.

Some use the mask to survive. Some use it and lie.

Let them hide behind it. Whatever you do. Keep yours on.

Peace & Love

Music playing: Emapea “Late Night chill”, Phil Tyler “Never Again”, Hanz Zimmer “You Fought Well”

While you CARE, you will die inside.

Dreaming lately of leaving. I see that there are poisonous snakes all around me. What keeps us here? We are attached to the idea of the past. But some people already made their choices and no longer serves you. What is a great for you is to BE SELFISH. I see everyone’s hand and I notice this is a game I no longer want to play. A game that keeps you running in place. The tragedy that once you leave the “one” will miss you. Its a facade. Do you see how fast people move on after death? It will be like that when you leave. In the end it will be worth saving yourself. But if you stay you will most definitely die. Not unalive but not being able to breathe peacefully. Imagine that. Fighting your whole life. LET GO of what was or could be and face the facts. YOU need to feel ALIVE. Go breathe without the suppression. You are in it complaining about the lack of LOVE. So why not BE FREE. Let me repeat. Break the cycle. BE FREE

Just seeing a lot of people self sabotaging. Some people are afraid of being alone. So they will drag another soul into their darkness and its not fair. LET GO.

Peace & Love

Songs for the ride: J.Cole “Intro”, J.Cole “For Whom The Bell Tolls”

The Ecstasy

I watch her put on lipstick

She smiles when she notices my eyes

Watching her

While music plays

Me two stepping to her

Butterflies like we first met

Love our date nights

Seductive stares

Every moment feel like summer nights

Your smile puts me in a perfect mood

"True Colors"

You think you know someone 

Like the back of your hand 

But if you stare at it long enough 

You’ll realize blemishes you’ve never seen before 

We think because we’ve had it 

In our lives for so long 

That we know all of its nooks and crannies

Ignoring the fact we haven’t seen it from every angle 

People have a way of revealing 

Only what they want us to see

And we have a way of 

Accepting only what we want to believe 

And when true colors are revealed 

We see how we’ve truly been aware all along 

But instead of facing the music we cover it 

With a lullaby

A sweet sweet song 

If that’s my girl 

And that’s my man 

I’ve known her forever 

My life long friend 

While ignoring that daunting tune in the background 

Of deceit, jealousy and let down

Through the Pageantry of Love

Through the flow of time. Our love dances a delicate line. Like a flickering flame in the night, Sometimes dim, sometimes burning bright.

We circle each other in cycles. Drawn together by invisible forces. Yet just as quickly as we collide, We find ourselves on opposite tides.

Moments of passion swiftly followed By turmoil and distance, feeling hollowed. A rollercoaster of emotions we ride, As our hearts sway with the changing tide.

In the quiet spaces between our storms. We find solace in each other’s forms. Yet the pull of uncertainty remains, A constant in our turbulent domains.

On and off we go, in this dance, Navigating love. Uncertain of where our journey leads, But finding comfort in each other’s needs.

Let us cherish the highs and the lows, For in this on and off love, our story grows. A tapestry woven with threads of delight, Each break only making us stronger, more bright.

Why are you afraid to LOVE? Reciprocate. What’s holding you back?

Peace & Love

Songs that was playing in the background while wrote this: Rio Romeo “Nothings New”, Sir “John Redcorn, FLOETRY “Say Yes”

Dancing on the bed

She moves in shadows, a tantalizing dance,
Graceful and fierce, every glance a trance.
Gilded in moonlight, her body sways,
A hypnotic rhythm, in sultry displays.
Her essence a paradox, bold and shy,
Eyes that beckon, secrets hidden nigh.
With each step, she sheds a veil of inhibition,
Revealing a soul seeking liberation.
In the smoky haze, she weaves her tale,
A temptress allure, beyond any veil.
Her movements fluid, like a whispered sin,
Drawing you closer, to the fire within.
In her world, boundaries blur and fade,
In the essence of passion, the heart's serenade.
An exotic dancer, a spirit untamed,
In the silent chaos, her dance proclaimed

Peace & Love

Wrote this listening to: Frank Ocean “Pyramids”

You are the Light

In the depths of despair, we find our strength,
A flicker of hope amidst the darkest night,
When trials assail and fears surround,
We rise from the ashes, unyielding and profound.
Like a mighty oak in the tempest's rage,
We stand tall, undeterred by life's fierce gage,
With resilience and courage, we forge ahead,
Turning obstacles into stepping stones instead.
Through adversity and storms that fiercely blow,
We navigate the rough seas, unafraid to row,
For within us lies a spirit, unshakable and free,
That surges forth with unyielding tenacity.
With each step forward, we reclaim our power,
Transforming doubt into unwavering tower,
Gaining wisdom and grace through every trial,
Embracing the journey with unwavering smile.
So let us rise, as we always do,
Facing our fears, our dreams coming true,
For in overcoming, we discover our might,
And emerge victorious, bathed in radiant light

Peace & Love

While it snows...

Don’t you get tired of trying to be right

Argue your way to a personal win

I don’t want to dispute any more

I want to be LOVED or left alone

No more mind games

Just do it

Afraid because of your past trauma

Fathers issues

Let me go & heal

Holding on to me hurts my growth

No one wants to be abandoned

But this life only have one seat one road

sometimes is lonely

Better to love yourself then

Keep guessing

Risk a broken heart

Its been worth it

Till my sanity is questioned

Hope you find yourself

Beyond the mess

God bless

Peace & Love

Repeat to self

Learn from your mistakes. Learn from your losses. Stop pointing the finger. Criticize yourself fairly. Judge yourself. Stay calm through the storms. Nobody cares. So be yourself and allow yourself to GROW.

Peace & Love

Music that got me thinking: AEROSMITH “Dream On”

“Freeak”

I want to dress up like Janet 

And get Nasty 

Then strip down like RiRi

And Dance for you like Beyoncé 

While you adorn me like Miguel 

I want to sing to you like Jhené 

Make you contemplate on how I make you feel

Everything I do is going to turn you on 

Like an Adina Howard song

Got you stressing like my name Cherrelle

I wasn’t trying to lead you on

Make you wonder about my curves 

Even tho I’m shaped like Coi Lerray

Put it on you like raw shea butter

Hard

Got you wondering if imma star 

But only in your eyes 

To the world 

I’m the quiet school girl with glasses 

But you know it can get trashy, nasty

Lil mama stay sassy 

Have you singing like Maxwell 

It’s ok, don’t blush, I won’t tell 

Making your blood build up

In the pit of your 

Oh 

Did I take it too far? 

SELF APPROVED

Building Radiance: Embrace doubt, seek relief in self-belief. Construct resilience, layer upon layer. Learn, grow, sculpt strength from past mistakes. Cultivate self-care, nurture self-confidence. Ascend with those who inspire. Embrace failures, find might. Stand tall. Build fortress of unwavering brilliance. Just BE yourself.

I AM GREAT. I cant let anyone/anything control me. Know your worth. The lack of LOVE does not devalue me.

PEACE & LOVE

Song that triggered self reflection: Kanye WEST ft. Andre 3000 “Life of the Party”

Leave Me Alone

I avoid eye contact

because every time

I look someone in their eyes

I face the fact

they'll look back

and realize

I'm dead inside

I try to hide it

but I'm exhausted by

the effort required

to keep up the act

that I'm alive

to seem in tact

and not impacted

by my circumstances

I mask my pain

to refrain

from the attention I gain

from those who think they can help

"don't let it get the best you"

is easier said

by someone on the outside

who has never experienced it

fuck the audacity

or the ignorance

and all the well wishes

no one's sympathy

ever changed a thing

and I never asked for it