Just... why?

Just give me a reason

I've seen you give more to less worthy

and I need explanation

I try to shake off the hurt

but it sticks like adhesive

the pain is piercing

makes me

literally physically sick

being stabbed through the heart

would hurt less

even if you took the blade and turned it

pulled it out and stuck it back in again

I could be cut in half

with a dull butter knife

and bleed less

and still I'd prefer that

to what I'm feeling right now

This is worse than rejection

this means we never had a connection

and I just misread shit

every moment I thought was a moment

wasn't

it was just my imagination

temptations to get faded

and forget the effort I wasted

thawing an ice box

to warm a heart

that's nonexistent

weak in the knees

not from love

but because

you pulled the rug

out from underneath me

Just give me a reason

I've seen you give more to less worthy

and I need explanation

I try to shake off the shame

but I can't seem to

embarrassment hits

when I think about how I was chasing behind something I could never get

someone I could never catch up to

not because you were out of my league

but because I was tripping

over my own feet

chasing what I wanted

when you had no real interest in me

you were only with it

because my interest in you

was the only thing

made you interesting